i'm feeling so god damn fucking lonely.
i feel like dying.
loneliness is the last thing i can bear now.
fuck it.
talked to azli and deb last night till early morn.
thanks dears.
was feeling pretty upset last night.
weibin and his friends
THANK YOU so much.
they made me laugh so much last night.
=) .
oh we had a mass convo.
HAHA.
thanks guys.
really.
though i only knew weibin.
the rest of you cheered me up.
ALOT.

woke up today at 2.30pm.
actually woke at 11am.
went back to sleep.
i rather sleep to face the loneliness.
but i just can't sleep anymore at 2pm.
woke up.
alone at home as usual.
sis and bro went school.
mom went work.
ate lunch.
bathed.
sat and stoned.
called and msged alot of ppl.
as usual all not free.

`abby. grounded.
`ele. school + training.
`cheryl. zoo and won't be back till 8.
`kerli. phone off.

wanted to call eliz.
but lost her no. when i lost my phone.
suddenly felt SUPER FUCKING lonely.
cried and cried.
felt like i was alone.
tried to stop crying
went to the toilet.
filled a large pail with water.
dunked my head in it.
felt good.
cause i don't know de water on my face is from the water in the pail,
or my tears.
best.
my hair is now wet.
dried it abit.
checked my wallet.
$6.
decided to go down to de market to buy some food to gorge myself.
bought $2 worth of crackers.
bought strawberry green tea.
bought kinder brueno.
went home.

YES!
I FOUND A FUCKING BOOK TO READ.
A series of Unfortunate Events.
Series 12.
The Penultimate Peril.
YES!
you saved my lonely life, book.
thanks.
okay.
i shall end my lonely miserable life here.
and go read the LOVELY book that saved my LONELY life.
while eating my crackers and drinkin my strawberry green tea.
with the laptop playing chinese emo songs,
like Wang Li Hom's Ni Bu Zai.
ahhh.
bye.


//edit: time - 5.38pm.
yay. my sis is home.
DAMN.
she just took half my kinder brueno. -.-

//edit: time - 6.28pm.
finished the book.
WTH?
so fast.
nvm. my sis and mom are home.
yay. shall turn of the com after the last emo song.
i love this song man.
Ni Bu Zai. -by Wang Li Hom.-
ROCKS.
hmm. shall go out watch tv after this.
er shit.
i ate so much crackers that i think i'll be too full for dinner.
HAHA.
nvm i'll eat at a later time.
mom cooked one of my favourite soup. -potato and corn-
ohh damn.
this song so emooooooo.